A New Chapter

I am the mom of a high-schooler now.

I really haven’t been able to wrap my head around the fact that in four short years my oldest will graduate. I know every mom says this but really where did the time go? Is it really possible that I could have a high-schooler? It is so strange to think that this adventure of mommyhood has come so far.

This new chapter that I am about to embark on is one that I begin a bit apprehensive and excited. I have a pit in my stomach and butterflies all at the same time. Did you know that was even possible? And yet I am so proud and excited while completely nervous and confident. Wow this emotional spiral of crazy is not really what I expected.

I am not ready for what lies ahead. I want to be, and I would love to say that I am totally prepared for what lies ahead. But that would be such a fib from outer space. Because I am not prepared and I have no idea what lies around the next bend. I know that I should be ready to begin this part of the adventure with expectancy and no fear but I am not there yet. I am confident of this; without fully relying on God for wisdom and grace I will not be the best I can be as a mom for my son during his high-school years. I know that this part of the journey will cause us to grow and stretch in ways that will sometimes be painful, but in the end be the best growth possible.

I have to prep for his academics and I think that is where I am the most petrified. I don’t want to mess it up and yet I know that God has called me to homeschool him through high-school. So this I know, God will give me what I need to do the task he has called me to do.

Still where did the time go? I think I blinked because my Little Man is no longer little.

Must Keep Going

The last week of school! Must. Keep. Going.

That is how we feel like here right now. For the first time ever we are taking an actual summer break this year. It cannot come soon enough. Every one of us is burnt out with trying to get through to the last of what needs to get done. And we have really had to push hard through these last few weeks just getting it all done. I have been trying to make sure to pepper in as many fun activities and experiments as I can so that getting all the book stuff done is more bearable. Normally I would have decided to just take our break and then do school during the summer but the kids asked for a full summer break. One of the advantages of homeschooling is that we can decide what our school year will look like.

I am so excited that we are at the end; it is time to reorganize and get prepared for next school year. The first year of high school is now just a matter of months away and to be honest, I am shaking in my proverbial boots because I don’t want to mess this up. Having all the right paperwork in order and making sure all the appropriate courses are taken intimidates me just a bit. But on the flip side, I am also so excited about the fact that my oldest is practically a freshman. The closing of one chapter and the opening of a new exciting chapter.